It's been a while since I had this feeling. Finally, I felt like I had to write something. As I expected, feelings like these seem to die out once my exam is finished. The feeling to write something. Thoughts flowing, the urge to channel it to other people's minds. To help them. It started to vanish. Yet I still want to say important things to people, but the times where I do have to say ceased to exist nowadays. Even if I do say it, would people care to listen? Would they understand? Would they ever respond? Things like these, just prevents me from doing these.
To start it off, I was moved by several events. These events triggered the feeling to write this post. But what I would like to focus on is these two videos. Watch them if you have the time, or if you are really that lazy, just keep on reading, but you may be missing a few points.
To start it off, I was moved by several events. These events triggered the feeling to write this post. But what I would like to focus on is these two videos. Watch them if you have the time, or if you are really that lazy, just keep on reading, but you may be missing a few points.
Yes I was slightly concerned why I actually had to watch these videos, and it was kind of surprising why they were both females. Not being a sexist and all, just bear in mind, it's not about what gender they have, but what the video was actually about.
Is it just me or videos like these start to spread? But that was kind of off-topic, I'd rather talk about the 2nd video, the video about the sunset painting. Have I ever turned back on passion? I could probably say no, but I'm not so sure myself. What is my passion? What do I really love to do? I make animations, it was something that I enjoy, but there are moments when I just don't feel like doing it. It would be frustrating, it takes time, effort, but what really matters is how much I love doing it. What happened? Was making animations not my thing? I have been making them for 5 years, and even though the time where I don't want to make them do exist. I can't help but to be inspired by music or thoughts.
When I hear good music, I can't help but to imagine a scenery, with characters laid out doing cool stuff. The effects, the movements, it inspires me. Rarely, I think about fictional stories, stories that I myself made, or probably it was related to something I watched, or experienced, whatever. But my imagination starts to expand, I let it run wild. I would love to see the things that I imagine happen, and...
Making animations was one way to do it.
Do I love making animations then? I could say I do, but how devoted am I to it? We'll just have to see about that. Should I be very devoted about it? Isn't that something that comes naturally? If I force myself to devote myself to animation, I won't call that 'real' devotion, would it?
Was making animations the only thing that I love to do? I couldn't say yes. I.... somehow.... love to do a lot of things. It was never just about one thing. Can I say that I'm flexible? There's a lot of things to do. I love teaching things. Should I become a teacher? If you see nowadays, teachers don't really 'teach' you. How should I put it... You're not learning it the way you should. I'm not saying every teacher in the world, but maybe you could say most teachers.
Let's take math as an example. I know that most people hate math. Maybe some can do well in it, but I doubt that you're actually learning. Well the school where I used to be was... dreadful, in a sort.
Students, especially the ones who took... nevermind, I'll get straight to the point. There are students who take exams too seriously. It's not really about exams, but, 'success'. Yes, I think that's the right word. They all look, like they're being forced, being pushed. It feels weird, to be in such a place, with my perspective. But it's quite normal to be in such situations for the people around me.
What do they strive for in school? They wanted high grades. High grades get them a better university/college, and they'll study more there. Get a degree or something, and get the best job you can. Get all the money you want, live the life that you always wanted.
That seems to be the plan. Am I right? Or was I wrong? If it was true. Then doesn't that seem like a very painful life? Spend more than 20 years in this world doing the things you hate so that you can live happily the rest of your life?
What's that did I hear? Sounds like a worthy investment? Takes a long time, but it would be worth it? Can I say, that having such mindsets were the cause of students committing suicide, a few disciplinary problems, the low grades that we kept getting?
I'm sorry, it probably wasn't because of the 20 years of doing stuff you hate, but it was only because of doing the things you hate. It was never about how long, but what you just did. Did you have a choice? Well yes, you do, do the things you hate or die. Simple as that. So people are forced to do this?
Who forced humans to do this? Nature? Logic? The universe? I doubt it, it was because of humans themselves. Does it make sense? Well at first glance, no. How about we take a look at things again?
Who made school? Who made exams? Who made jobs, companies? Who invented the system of money? Humans, exactly. But then what driven us to make those? The things that we hated?
First of all, are those things that we hate? Or did we invent it because we wanted do? I probably won't explain much right now, but schools are where you gain knowledge, right? Humans are curious beings, they want to gain knowledge. There is a way where you can take the time to appreciate the beauty of the things that you learn at school. It's not about studying, but learning. That's what matters.
I said something about maths, right? Did you 'learn' maths because you had to? Did you excel in maths because it was something that you can 'memorize' easily? Did you take the time to understand? Did you ever learn what it actually is? What can you do with them? Why would you learn them in the first place?
Sadly, questions like these don't come from the mouth of most students these days, it's very rare anyway, like a unicorn or something. And even if they were asked, I doubted that teachers would even have the time to answer.
You might be wondering, does it even matter? Yes it does. Because if you kept on ignoring the answers to these vital questions, you're no better than a slave. Even if you did succeed in your life. But you only succeeded as a slave, it doesn't change a thing. Not a slave of God, but a slave to the world.
My friends had no clue about the connection between indices and logarithms. They had no clue about what it is actually. And if I were to push a bit further, I don't think they would have even less clue about integrals, trigonometry, or just about anything.
I actually tried to question someone, who was the same age as me, was kind of smart, whatever, but the question was, why are we learning differentiation? The reply was "You don't have to confuse yourself and overthink about things like those, just study about it,". It was weird for me, probably some of you do agree, but was it worth to do such things?
How stressed are you to learn those? Yeah go ahead and try, force yourself to 'learn' everything, try to use that mindset I kind of hated above and see how far you could go. You could probably burn yourself out. It's a dreadful path, if you make it that way. Is it dreadful because it is, or did you make it that way?
Take a first glance about trigonometry. Triangles, triangles everywhere. What and why? Well you could have a first guess from the questions you previously answered in tests that you can estimate how high a building is with trigo.
Don't tell me that's the only reason you learn trigo, you probably didn't even learn it because of that. Yeah, have you ever heard about Pangya? According to most people, it's a frustrating, boring game, but I'll elaborate on how wrong they are afterwards. Pangya is just a fantasy golf game. And the pros there can make Tiger Woods look like a noob. Was the game so easy? No, it wasn't.
People went through all the hard work finding out wind values, each yard. The further you are to the hole, the more the wind affects your ball. That's easy, but how much does it affect? How do you know how much it affects your ball? And slope values, don't get me started, if you need to make your shot on an inclined ground, your ball will bend somewhere right? Yeah.
Also, the height, is the hole level relative to where you are? Higher? Lower? Whatever, I'm just making you confused right now. The thing is, it's complicated stuff. Yet, a lot of people actually enjoy playing the game. Do you want to know why? Because you got something you wanted. That's the basis of it.
Thing is, we use trigo to solve most of those problems.
You went through all the hard work , and you got that ball into the hole from a very far distance. Were they frustrated in the process? Well actually they did, but that's because of something else. What actually mattered was did they did it because they were forced to, or did they want to do it? Easy to tell, it's just a game, you were never 'forced' to play the game, that's silly. Well probably in Saw's game, but that's off-topic. Why did we want to find out the wind values? Because we want to see that ball sink into that hole. That's it. After all the failed attempts, we finally got it. We got what we really wanted. The enjoyment fills in your body. You can see that at first we might want to see the ball spin into the cup, then we wanted it to just, enter the cup without even bouncing, and then we wanted to do that while the ball was curving.
You see there? Games aren't just about shooting people or killing dragons. They come in a variety of genres, but they all have something in common. I enjoy fps games, yeah, people spend time practicing to get themselves kills in a match, right? It's just the same with Pangya. You want to get an awesome chip-in. That's what matters. Yes.
Oh god, do you even realize how I dragged school to games here? So what's the connection? You can see how Pangya is connected to math. Not all games connect to the things you learn in school sorry. Though Portal has an interesting twist to physics. Kinda sparks some curiosity.
I'm not telling you to turn subjects in school to games. No, not really. Thing is, you don't just enjoy games, seriously. But what makes games enjoyable, is the same thing that make things in school enjoyable. Same goes to a lot of other stuff, actually.
*I'll be continuing this at a later time. I kinda need a break, this post is getting too long.
When I hear good music, I can't help but to imagine a scenery, with characters laid out doing cool stuff. The effects, the movements, it inspires me. Rarely, I think about fictional stories, stories that I myself made, or probably it was related to something I watched, or experienced, whatever. But my imagination starts to expand, I let it run wild. I would love to see the things that I imagine happen, and...
Making animations was one way to do it.
Do I love making animations then? I could say I do, but how devoted am I to it? We'll just have to see about that. Should I be very devoted about it? Isn't that something that comes naturally? If I force myself to devote myself to animation, I won't call that 'real' devotion, would it?
Was making animations the only thing that I love to do? I couldn't say yes. I.... somehow.... love to do a lot of things. It was never just about one thing. Can I say that I'm flexible? There's a lot of things to do. I love teaching things. Should I become a teacher? If you see nowadays, teachers don't really 'teach' you. How should I put it... You're not learning it the way you should. I'm not saying every teacher in the world, but maybe you could say most teachers.
Let's take math as an example. I know that most people hate math. Maybe some can do well in it, but I doubt that you're actually learning. Well the school where I used to be was... dreadful, in a sort.
Students, especially the ones who took... nevermind, I'll get straight to the point. There are students who take exams too seriously. It's not really about exams, but, 'success'. Yes, I think that's the right word. They all look, like they're being forced, being pushed. It feels weird, to be in such a place, with my perspective. But it's quite normal to be in such situations for the people around me.
What do they strive for in school? They wanted high grades. High grades get them a better university/college, and they'll study more there. Get a degree or something, and get the best job you can. Get all the money you want, live the life that you always wanted.
That seems to be the plan. Am I right? Or was I wrong? If it was true. Then doesn't that seem like a very painful life? Spend more than 20 years in this world doing the things you hate so that you can live happily the rest of your life?
What's that did I hear? Sounds like a worthy investment? Takes a long time, but it would be worth it? Can I say, that having such mindsets were the cause of students committing suicide, a few disciplinary problems, the low grades that we kept getting?
I'm sorry, it probably wasn't because of the 20 years of doing stuff you hate, but it was only because of doing the things you hate. It was never about how long, but what you just did. Did you have a choice? Well yes, you do, do the things you hate or die. Simple as that. So people are forced to do this?
Who forced humans to do this? Nature? Logic? The universe? I doubt it, it was because of humans themselves. Does it make sense? Well at first glance, no. How about we take a look at things again?
Who made school? Who made exams? Who made jobs, companies? Who invented the system of money? Humans, exactly. But then what driven us to make those? The things that we hated?
First of all, are those things that we hate? Or did we invent it because we wanted do? I probably won't explain much right now, but schools are where you gain knowledge, right? Humans are curious beings, they want to gain knowledge. There is a way where you can take the time to appreciate the beauty of the things that you learn at school. It's not about studying, but learning. That's what matters.
I said something about maths, right? Did you 'learn' maths because you had to? Did you excel in maths because it was something that you can 'memorize' easily? Did you take the time to understand? Did you ever learn what it actually is? What can you do with them? Why would you learn them in the first place?
Sadly, questions like these don't come from the mouth of most students these days, it's very rare anyway, like a unicorn or something. And even if they were asked, I doubted that teachers would even have the time to answer.
You might be wondering, does it even matter? Yes it does. Because if you kept on ignoring the answers to these vital questions, you're no better than a slave. Even if you did succeed in your life. But you only succeeded as a slave, it doesn't change a thing. Not a slave of God, but a slave to the world.
My friends had no clue about the connection between indices and logarithms. They had no clue about what it is actually. And if I were to push a bit further, I don't think they would have even less clue about integrals, trigonometry, or just about anything.
I actually tried to question someone, who was the same age as me, was kind of smart, whatever, but the question was, why are we learning differentiation? The reply was "You don't have to confuse yourself and overthink about things like those, just study about it,". It was weird for me, probably some of you do agree, but was it worth to do such things?
How stressed are you to learn those? Yeah go ahead and try, force yourself to 'learn' everything, try to use that mindset I kind of hated above and see how far you could go. You could probably burn yourself out. It's a dreadful path, if you make it that way. Is it dreadful because it is, or did you make it that way?
Take a first glance about trigonometry. Triangles, triangles everywhere. What and why? Well you could have a first guess from the questions you previously answered in tests that you can estimate how high a building is with trigo.
Don't tell me that's the only reason you learn trigo, you probably didn't even learn it because of that. Yeah, have you ever heard about Pangya? According to most people, it's a frustrating, boring game, but I'll elaborate on how wrong they are afterwards. Pangya is just a fantasy golf game. And the pros there can make Tiger Woods look like a noob. Was the game so easy? No, it wasn't.
People went through all the hard work finding out wind values, each yard. The further you are to the hole, the more the wind affects your ball. That's easy, but how much does it affect? How do you know how much it affects your ball? And slope values, don't get me started, if you need to make your shot on an inclined ground, your ball will bend somewhere right? Yeah.
Also, the height, is the hole level relative to where you are? Higher? Lower? Whatever, I'm just making you confused right now. The thing is, it's complicated stuff. Yet, a lot of people actually enjoy playing the game. Do you want to know why? Because you got something you wanted. That's the basis of it.
Thing is, we use trigo to solve most of those problems.
You went through all the hard work , and you got that ball into the hole from a very far distance. Were they frustrated in the process? Well actually they did, but that's because of something else. What actually mattered was did they did it because they were forced to, or did they want to do it? Easy to tell, it's just a game, you were never 'forced' to play the game, that's silly. Well probably in Saw's game, but that's off-topic. Why did we want to find out the wind values? Because we want to see that ball sink into that hole. That's it. After all the failed attempts, we finally got it. We got what we really wanted. The enjoyment fills in your body. You can see that at first we might want to see the ball spin into the cup, then we wanted it to just, enter the cup without even bouncing, and then we wanted to do that while the ball was curving.
You see there? Games aren't just about shooting people or killing dragons. They come in a variety of genres, but they all have something in common. I enjoy fps games, yeah, people spend time practicing to get themselves kills in a match, right? It's just the same with Pangya. You want to get an awesome chip-in. That's what matters. Yes.
Oh god, do you even realize how I dragged school to games here? So what's the connection? You can see how Pangya is connected to math. Not all games connect to the things you learn in school sorry. Though Portal has an interesting twist to physics. Kinda sparks some curiosity.
I'm not telling you to turn subjects in school to games. No, not really. Thing is, you don't just enjoy games, seriously. But what makes games enjoyable, is the same thing that make things in school enjoyable. Same goes to a lot of other stuff, actually.
*I'll be continuing this at a later time. I kinda need a break, this post is getting too long.
